About 4-5 months ago, Amelia decided she was afraid to be in her room alone. With that came lots of interesting, sleepless nights. In and out of her room pretty much all night long assuring her that everything will be ok. She became afraid of small things around her like the monitor camera on the wall and shadows. As the days and weeks went on, she ended up coming into bed with us on a nightly basis. Waking up crying every night and even having night terrors often is the story of our lives currently. About a week ago she decided to attempt to climb out of her crib, this made me extremely anxious. We bit the bullet and decided on a toddler conversion to her crib instead of getting a big girl bed just yet. Each night we sit in her room until she falls asleep.
She still comes into bed with us every night after 3-4 hours of sleeping in her bed mostly because of our laziness and lack of follow through. While I do complain quite a bit about this sleeping situation, I have decided to embrace this extra time and cuddles (sometimes kicks) with my little girl. I’ve read many an article and even asked our pediatrician about this dilemma and I’ve come to realize that there is no “right” answer to this scenario. I would love to put my foot down and re-sleep train her, I’m also fighting with a fiesty 2 year old each night instead of getting my much needed sleep. I have chosen to bring her into our room so I can get sleep. Maybe that is selfish of me, but if we all get our sleep, we all wake up happy and ready to take on the day. Amelia has never been a good sleeper since birth so I’m hoping eventually she will sleep in her own room. One day, when Amelia leaves for college I know I’ll be kicking myself for ever wanting her to sleep in her own room. So for now, I’m going to do the best I can, not kick myself for co-sleeping and get some Zs! Being a good mommy in my book is accepting your situation and rolling with the punches! Nothing is permanent with these tiny tots!