As I lay here in bed at 8PM on a Sunday night, my husband is currently putting our 2 and a half year old to bed. Bedtime gets pretty crazy around here but we tend to stick to a pretty strict routine. My daughter has never been a good sleeper, we’ve tried EVERYTHING! Reward charts, stickers, overpriced lavender bubble bath to relax her, earlier bedtime, later bedtime, you name it, we’ve done it!
Each night consists of dinner, bath, snack, potty, brush teeth and for the grande finale, bed. For about a year now, she’s begged us to stay in the room with her while she falls asleep. I thought it was a phase and being the pushover that I am, I gave into it. I’m not a believer of crying it out when it comes to my own kid, if that’s your method, more power to you!
I’ve been super stressed and exhausted lately. Since preschool started, my little has been sick a ton. Just cold and cough but she wakes up more often. Combine that with night terrors and you’ve got one one tired mama! I’ve been putting a lot of pressure on myself to get the power back. Get my daughter to fall asleep on her own again, to stay in her bed the full night and for me to get my side of the bed ALL to myself. This was a fabulous idea until I found myself upset, stressed out and at the end of my rope. I found myself raising my voice a lot more than usual and lashing out at anything anyone said. I realized that this is no way to live. My daughter is amazing! She is smart, adorable and so loving (when she wants to be). I found that when I let go of all of this sleep stuff go, I relaxed so much.
So what if she needs someone to sit with her to sleep? So what if she crawls into bed for cuddles in the middle of the night? Why stress myself out over something that she will grow out of one day? One day I will be sad that this phase will be over. That she will no longer need me like she does now. I decided that not sweating the small stuff is way better than making myself crazy. I’ve also decided that I need to embrace this age and this time in my life even though I’m tired and running myself ragged. My daughter will only be two and half once. Just once! Just thinking about it is bringing tears to my eyes. Time flies and it goes by even quicker as you get older. It’s time I stop putting so much pressure on myself and to live the life I have and enjoy every second of every moment even though it’s not how I pictured it.
If you are like me and struggle with a non-sleeping child, hang in there mama! You will get through it. While you go through this, remember you are not alone! We all go through our tough times as mommies and we will get through it, lack of sleep and all!